You read that right… “I’m quitting Kilig Ko.”
…is what I would have said if I didn’t believe in myself.
Honestly, it’s a bit crazy how many times I’ve considered quitting before even launching. As I write this, I’m on the verge of soft launching my online store, which is exciting! I’ve spent so much time going back and forth debating on either hiring out someone to do things I don’t feel confident in, or just figuring out how to do it myself.
I’ve been stuck in a bit of paralysis, hesitating to make any moves because I’ve felt unprepared or unsure if my work is good enough. The thought of pursuing Kilig Ko full-time has crossed my mind, and now, with some support, I’m finally making strides toward that goal. Yay for progress!
I’ve realized that comparing myself to others has left me feeling dissatisfied with my own work. So, I’m focusing on being accountable to just DO and not overthink it. Practice makes progress, right? And while perfection may be elusive, I’m determined to get as close as I can!
This whole process has made me realize a couple of things:
1) There REALLY is no perfect time to do something, or waiting until you’re “ready.” I’ve literally been pushing back the launch of everything for Kilig Ko because I don’t ever feel ready. Once I make progress on one thing, there’s always something else holding me back because I want to finish that thing too before launching… So if I keep doing that, honestly Kilig Ko will never officially launch. So I’m putting this all out here to keep myself accountable. I’m going to let my website go live soon! WOOO! (if all goes to plan, and even if it doesn’t… I’ll still let it go live and learn along the way)
2) Time moves fast asf lol. I feel like I’ve been stuck stressing out over how I’m going to do things that the time just passes me by, and the cycle of stress continues because I still didn’t do anything. And just thinking back now, it’s been a year and Kilig Ko is still not where I want it to be. I know I’m probably just being harsh on myself because I’m still proud of myself for what I have been able to do – but the critic inside of me always says I need to be doing more, so I’m really trying to find the perfect balance of juggling everything in my life.
3) Lastly, you have more people supporting you than you think. I always have anxiety around creating anything because in the back of my head, I always think that no one will ever care or want it. But through this whole process, I’ve grown to be more and more grateful for every person I’ve talked to who’s supported me through this all. So if you’re reading this, thank you for even taking the time :)
I hope reading this wasn’t a complete waste hahah. Hopefully it can inspire you to just go out there and create. You don’t need to know how to do anything, just go out and do.. (so far it’s been moving me along haha) Always rooting for you <3
Stay tuned for the launch—I can’t wait to share this journey with you!
- Sarah ♡